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Not a bad gap for my feeling overwhelmedness. I am not busy overwhelmed, which is good/bad. Good because I can breathe. Bad because I can navelgaze.
I want to make some changes in my life, but I don't want to put in the work. Shocking, I know.
I think I want to go to bed and wake up with things different, but I know that would be unsatisfying (and is impossible). The change needs to be with my laziness at home. I tend to get home everyday from work, do a few things and then plop down in the recliner and basically not move until time for shower and bed.
I want:
to get in shape
to declutter
to get more involved with mac's schoolwork
to cook more
to GET THINGS DONE
I do maybe one thing towards one of those things a week and then plop again and go into a shame spiral.
I need to change habits and that takes time, so perhaps lent is the perfect time to do this. 40 days will do a lot to developing a habit or breaking one.
I have gotten into a good rhythm at work where I am more productive and more able to stay ahead of crisis (but am still behind, because more work than 1 person can do will give you that result.), so maybe just a shift of some of that to home? But work also has my brain so scattered and frantic and I cannot sustain that for long periods, it is part of why I want to plop when I do get home.
It is something to work on at least. As so often is the case, writign it down has made it a bit clearer and at least has stopped it from running laps in my brain.
I want to make some changes in my life, but I don't want to put in the work. Shocking, I know.
I think I want to go to bed and wake up with things different, but I know that would be unsatisfying (and is impossible). The change needs to be with my laziness at home. I tend to get home everyday from work, do a few things and then plop down in the recliner and basically not move until time for shower and bed.
I want:
to get in shape
to declutter
to get more involved with mac's schoolwork
to cook more
to GET THINGS DONE
I do maybe one thing towards one of those things a week and then plop again and go into a shame spiral.
I need to change habits and that takes time, so perhaps lent is the perfect time to do this. 40 days will do a lot to developing a habit or breaking one.
I have gotten into a good rhythm at work where I am more productive and more able to stay ahead of crisis (but am still behind, because more work than 1 person can do will give you that result.), so maybe just a shift of some of that to home? But work also has my brain so scattered and frantic and I cannot sustain that for long periods, it is part of why I want to plop when I do get home.
It is something to work on at least. As so often is the case, writign it down has made it a bit clearer and at least has stopped it from running laps in my brain.
